This is not a rhetorical question, I’m sorry if you are here hoping to find an answer… because I don’t have one. I’m kind of hoping that some of you will reply with some ideas because I’m fresh out. I don’t mean to sound like a downer, but let’s face it, we all want what is best for not only our own children but also for all those yet to be born, with or without Autism.
None of us are Superman, and even he can’t change the ways of man… the greed inherent in humans shows it’s ugly head to us every single day with oil spills, economic collapses built on risky wheeling and dealing at the top, pharmaceutical companies putting profits before health and so on and so forth. How does the average person like me contend with all of this?
I would like to think that if I stick with this blog, if I stick with my minuscule little presence in the ever growing online Autism community, maybe I will play some small role.. maybe my ever so tiny voice will be that last little bit needed to push the community voice from unheard to world changing… then again, I could win the lottery too.
Becoming part of the community has been great, I’ve met some wonderful people that truly are making a difference.. we all know how much awareness Jenny McCarthy and Holly Peete have raised, but they’re celebs. Some people have started up amazing organizations such as Autism Speaks but they’re philanthropists and entrepreneurs. One amazing dad is even running 60 marathons to raise awareness… but then, he’s good at that.
Me? I… hmm… I don’t really have any skills to speak of. I am not a doctor, scientist, athlete, celebrity, no business skills, don’t have a clue about raising money much less having a charity, I don’t have shirts to sell, no radio station, I don’t have wise words of wisdom, I have no real advice to give or knowledge to be writing articles/books and the list goes on and on. I’m just your average guy that started a blog with a terrible domain name and decided to jot down some of my experiences. That’s the best I’ve got and it… gets 20 visitors a day.
I feel so very lost in a world of great people doing great things while I sit here and try to write something positive. I’ve written some pretty negative stuff actually, but I never do hit the publish button. It’s a bit like therapy at the time, get it all out, into words and then erase it. I figure, maybe I can’t change the world but I do know that bringing other people down won’t help, plus, that’s not the purpose of me sharing with you.
In the end, I guess all I can really ever do is do my best for my children. To always be there, always support them, always encourage them and just do my best to teach them right from wrong… and from there, I hope for the best.
I can’t change the world no matter how much I really wish I could… I can’t even make anything better in my own life. But I’ll never stop trying to prepare my boys for what is out there. I’ve missed my chances, if there were any… but my boys have a long life ahead of them filled with limitless possibilities.
Maybe they will change the world. I can’t do much, but I can dream.